Cancun Travelogue, Part Eight

Just killed two hours in the airport watching 'High Fidelity.' I've always loved John Cusack's work, not only as an actor but as a writer and director. While he didn't direct 'High Fidelity,' he did co-write the screenplay with his two "writing partners," Steve Pink and D.V. DeVincentis. They'd done theatre together in Chicago growing up, and stayed together as writers even while Cusack's acting career took off.

I always picture what would happen if Marty and I ever got our acts together and started writing, the way we'll threaten to do when a bolt of inspiration would come around. We already have two full-length features planned out, one television series that we're trying to figure out how to do, and one short film that is outlined and ready to flesh out. It's just getting our shiz together and doing it. I'm not scared of doing it, nor is Marty. We just need to make the time, and that seems to be the worst aspect of it. How do you balance out the career and the passion, when the passion doesn't pay the bills?

My flight will be boarding soon. Though I loved the vacation, I am so ready to be home. My bed, my car, my family.

And by family, I mean my friends. The people I love. You.

The last couple of years, after things disintegrated between Lisa and me, I got closer to a lot of my family members that I had been distant from. That said, it almost seems to be an entirely different part of my life. I trust them, and of course I love them, but there's a lot of things in my life that I simply can't talk to them about. Does that make me less of a person? Does it make me a horrible person? Or does it just mean that I've got my own support structure?

I feel really empty at times, and I see people who are close -- super close -- to their family, and they get a lot of comfort from them. I'm just not wired that way, and haven't been for a while.

Comments

[Jane]

If you guys have a script somewhat together, I have a long time friend here in Dallas that owns his own production company, Mandingo Productions. He recently finished a short film (that only took him 4 years to complete) that he plans on submitting to Sundance and USA film festivals. I've seen the rough cut and it's REALLY good. Anyway, he might be someone that could help you out. But...you gotta return my phone calls!